Sunday, March 22, 2009
Now Is The Time.
You know, I feel kind of weird these days.
I think something I do has to be changed.
I can encourage people but I can't encourage myself.
I help people so much but I can't do it myself.
Lots of people say I'm cheerful but I just love to help people sincerely.
Not to get merits or anything.
It's all from within.
On 260309, I woke up and realised that my eye was swollen. ):
I thought there was something stuck in my eye but there wasn't.
So, I decided to go to school since I thought it was not a BIG deal.
During Art lesson, we had to do another project. ):
like got so many projects.
Hang-Glider, P.E., Art, English.
0.o
"Footsteps of Unity"
...
After that, I went to Mac with Yanna And Amirah.
It was our FIRST time this year.
( Will post pictures soon )
Came home, my eye was swollen-er.
PAINFUL!
Yup. Painful.
I didn't really cry but it was excruciating.
Woke up the next day, 270309
I eye was even red-er and swollen-er.
My mother told me to rest at home and ask my sister to bring my to the Doctor in the late morning.
Went and Doc gave me NORMAL SALINE and a gel to put in the eye.
Went home put it.
Gel 3 times a day put 15 minutes after saline.
Saline 4 hours daily.
Nothing happened.
It became worse as a matter of fact.
On Sat, 280309
We had to go to Johnson Mama's House for my Grand dad's memorial.
Then my eye was like a goldfish.
And I could not even touch it.
Literally like a balloon.
Yeah.
So i wore my sister's sunglasses.
Then people keep saying I looked like a real Superstar.
Hahaha.
(Pictures up soon)
Then on Sunday, 290309
Cell Group was at my house.
Rae played last year's Easter production.
So touching and nice.
Seriously world class.
So impacted.
LOL. I gave out 3 invitation cards today.
Ahahah.
Today, 310309
Last day of March.
As most of you know, time does fly.
):
I just wish i could reverse time.
So, Farewell mates.
Till we meet again.
Why did it have to end up like this.
Life's just so complicated.
First _ _ _ _ _, now?
_ _ _ _ _ _.
Why does it all have to get stuck like this?
Even _ _ _ _ _.
Sometimes I feel I don't know where I'm going.
I go to the right track and some people pull me back while some make me emotionally confused.
Not naming who and how.
( can be both boy and girl )
WHY?
That's the only question I have in life.
Well, I've got it.
I should really start thinking straight.
You know, sometimes you don't know who to trust and all.
):
What did I do to deserve this.
People say I appear happy on the outside.
Well, inside it's totally different.
Well, I do feel happy or exhilarated sometimes.
Genuine happiness.
But it's just so confusing sometimes.
):
I think something I do has to be changed.
I can encourage people but I can't encourage myself.
I help people so much but I can't do it myself.
Lots of people say I'm cheerful but I just love to help people sincerely.
Not to get merits or anything.
It's all from within.
On 260309, I woke up and realised that my eye was swollen. ):
I thought there was something stuck in my eye but there wasn't.
So, I decided to go to school since I thought it was not a BIG deal.
During Art lesson, we had to do another project. ):
like got so many projects.
Hang-Glider, P.E., Art, English.
0.o
"Footsteps of Unity"
...
After that, I went to Mac with Yanna And Amirah.
It was our FIRST time this year.
( Will post pictures soon )
Came home, my eye was swollen-er.
PAINFUL!
Yup. Painful.
I didn't really cry but it was excruciating.
Woke up the next day, 270309
I eye was even red-er and swollen-er.
My mother told me to rest at home and ask my sister to bring my to the Doctor in the late morning.
Went and Doc gave me NORMAL SALINE and a gel to put in the eye.
Went home put it.
Gel 3 times a day put 15 minutes after saline.
Saline 4 hours daily.
Nothing happened.
It became worse as a matter of fact.
On Sat, 280309
We had to go to Johnson Mama's House for my Grand dad's memorial.
Then my eye was like a goldfish.
And I could not even touch it.
Literally like a balloon.
Yeah.
So i wore my sister's sunglasses.
Then people keep saying I looked like a real Superstar.
Hahaha.
(Pictures up soon)
Then on Sunday, 290309
Cell Group was at my house.
Rae played last year's Easter production.
So touching and nice.
Seriously world class.
So impacted.
LOL. I gave out 3 invitation cards today.
Ahahah.
Today, 310309
Last day of March.
As most of you know, time does fly.
):
I just wish i could reverse time.
So, Farewell mates.
Till we meet again.
Why did it have to end up like this.
Life's just so complicated.
First _ _ _ _ _, now?
_ _ _ _ _ _.
Why does it all have to get stuck like this?
Even _ _ _ _ _.
Sometimes I feel I don't know where I'm going.
I go to the right track and some people pull me back while some make me emotionally confused.
Not naming who and how.
( can be both boy and girl )
WHY?
That's the only question I have in life.
Well, I've got it.
I should really start thinking straight.
You know, sometimes you don't know who to trust and all.
):
What did I do to deserve this.
People say I appear happy on the outside.
Well, inside it's totally different.
Well, I do feel happy or exhilarated sometimes.
Genuine happiness.
But it's just so confusing sometimes.
):
Labels: GaGa over LaDy GaGa
Friday, March 13, 2009
Last day of Term 1
Well, today in the morning, the same thing.
Flies everywhere. So yucky and icky.
And i still wonder why the last story DNT toilet light is on early in the morning.
Then after that we had to gather under the bridge for something.
Our beloved Sec 4 seniors stepped down today.
Amirah cried then Mdm Rashidah also cried.
Upper Sec:
Jing Xuan ( President )
HuiTing ( Vice President ) [ Discipline ]
Ili ( Vice President ) [ Events ]
Lower Sec:
Izyan ( Head )
Feng Ting ( Vice Head ) [ Discipline ]
Krisada ( Vice Head ) [ Events ]
Yup.
Then Mr Tan asked a few of the SCs to meet him.
I think Laughing Gas got her wish.
She was chosen to go to Cambodia.
Lol.
Well, It's her choice to make tough.
Lol.
Laughing Gas, if you go, Enjoy yourself there.
Recess was the first time I did a recess duty with a senior.
Lol.
Weird I know.
Lol.
Today didn't have lessons.
We had a workshop about building up our Self-Esteem.
Like also quite coincidental.
I've been talking about Self-Esteem for a few days.
And today we had THAT workshop.
(:
That's about all.
Netball was TORTURE ! (:
Today got back result slip.
HORRENDOUS!
I wanted to scream when I saw it.
* All average scores
English - B3 ( 66.5/100 )
Chinese - U ( 30.5/100 )
Mathematics - A1 ( 75.5/100 )
Science - A1 ( 83/100 )
Geography - A1 ( 84/100 )
History - U ( 45/100 )
Literature - B3 ( 69/100 )
D&T - C5 ( 51/100 )
Art - A1 ( 78/100 )
Horrible Right?
So many A1s BUT got 2 Us
So saddening.
):
Like now my result slip not nice.
(:
P.S. Laughing Gas, cool down. Don't need to get angry at (you know who). After the competition, there's no need to talk le. And I don't have a rope to bring to school UNLESS you want to sponsor me. LOL. And don't worry I'll always be there somewhere where you won't know at some point in time. :D
Flies everywhere. So yucky and icky.
And i still wonder why the last story DNT toilet light is on early in the morning.
Then after that we had to gather under the bridge for something.
Our beloved Sec 4 seniors stepped down today.
Amirah cried then Mdm Rashidah also cried.
Upper Sec:
Jing Xuan ( President )
HuiTing ( Vice President ) [ Discipline ]
Ili ( Vice President ) [ Events ]
Lower Sec:
Izyan ( Head )
Feng Ting ( Vice Head ) [ Discipline ]
Krisada ( Vice Head ) [ Events ]
Yup.
Then Mr Tan asked a few of the SCs to meet him.
I think Laughing Gas got her wish.
She was chosen to go to Cambodia.
Lol.
Well, It's her choice to make tough.
Lol.
Laughing Gas, if you go, Enjoy yourself there.
Recess was the first time I did a recess duty with a senior.
Lol.
Weird I know.
Lol.
Today didn't have lessons.
We had a workshop about building up our Self-Esteem.
Like also quite coincidental.
I've been talking about Self-Esteem for a few days.
And today we had THAT workshop.
(:
That's about all.
Netball was TORTURE ! (:
Today got back result slip.
HORRENDOUS!
I wanted to scream when I saw it.
* All average scores
English - B3 ( 66.5/100 )
Chinese - U ( 30.5/100 )
Mathematics - A1 ( 75.5/100 )
Science - A1 ( 83/100 )
Geography - A1 ( 84/100 )
History - U ( 45/100 )
Literature - B3 ( 69/100 )
D&T - C5 ( 51/100 )
Art - A1 ( 78/100 )
Horrible Right?
So many A1s BUT got 2 Us
So saddening.
):
Like now my result slip not nice.
(:
P.S. Laughing Gas, cool down. Don't need to get angry at (you know who). After the competition, there's no need to talk le. And I don't have a rope to bring to school UNLESS you want to sponsor me. LOL. And don't worry I'll always be there somewhere where you won't know at some point in time. :D
Saturday, March 07, 2009
Someone out there
Yes. And all that time there was some people out there comforting me. (:
Yes you know who you are. But there is one person who was a new person in my life. She did something no ''new'' friend would do. We only started to talk a few days back but throughout the whole 3 days, she messaged me comforting me at the same time. She none other than my laughing gas (:
Miss Poon YuHui.
Yup. She's an SC and well, I think we should get to know people out there more often. You don't often get a chance to find people like these everywhere.
Now gone but something restored .
Well most of you might not know but my grandpa ( mum's side ) recently passed on and his wake was held on Tuesday afternoon. It happened on Friday night and it caught me off guard. Well, it did catch me off guard as I didn't expect it to bee so soon.
I was not very close to him and it made me feel so guilty for not having sad goodbye. He was a strong man for having endured all the pain and sufferings he went through. The people who were closer to him were those who had the most pain but they said he was a strong and full of faith person as he prayed a lot even in such pain. He had a lot of complication and the doctor said that it could not all be treated at one but he had a lot of mental strength. His unique name is - Napoleon Gabriel.
The amazing thing was that the 3 different days (Sunday, Monday and Tuesday), 3 different pastors came to share a message for each day and the thing was that all of them shared the same message. Like Whoa.
It's from : 1 Corinthians 15: 50- 58.
Well at least now my Grandpa is not suffering from all his pain anymore and is in good hands. At this point in time, I saw something different. There were broken relationships being restored by both Family and Friends. Everyone put their differences aside and paid their last respect. I witnessed it all. Along with my sister.
That time in life i was thinking of how much we can do in our life to impact people's life. All this time everything was as it is but now it all seem to have a different perspective.
I did shed my tears and deep down I am happy to say :
I was not very close to him and it made me feel so guilty for not having sad goodbye. He was a strong man for having endured all the pain and sufferings he went through. The people who were closer to him were those who had the most pain but they said he was a strong and full of faith person as he prayed a lot even in such pain. He had a lot of complication and the doctor said that it could not all be treated at one but he had a lot of mental strength. His unique name is - Napoleon Gabriel.
The amazing thing was that the 3 different days (Sunday, Monday and Tuesday), 3 different pastors came to share a message for each day and the thing was that all of them shared the same message. Like Whoa.
It's from : 1 Corinthians 15: 50- 58.
Well at least now my Grandpa is not suffering from all his pain anymore and is in good hands. At this point in time, I saw something different. There were broken relationships being restored by both Family and Friends. Everyone put their differences aside and paid their last respect. I witnessed it all. Along with my sister.
That time in life i was thinking of how much we can do in our life to impact people's life. All this time everything was as it is but now it all seem to have a different perspective.
I did shed my tears and deep down I am happy to say :
Grandpa You're in good hands now.
